If you don't like the road you're walking...

I lifted this picture from a friend who had posted it today because it really spoke to me in a powerful way. 

I haven't liked the direction of my life for some time now.  I've been feeling demoralized by not being able to get a job/keep a job, etc, along with feeling bad about my health situation, creditors calling ad infinitum, and just feeling a bit worthless.

But then a few things started me thinking -- thinking about what it is I have to offer the world, how I can effect change, what I can contribute to the massive change that the entire world is going through RIGHT NOW. 

I started back when I was a child, thinking about the things that I used to do and feel passionate about.  So I started babysitting which is the very first paying job I ever had!  While I've been babysitting I've been crocheting hats.  Hats that I can sell to people who want them, hats I can give away to those who need them, hats that show that I have created something that is useful with my own two hands! 

I've found it gives me pleasure to create with my hands.

I also find pleasure in writing, another way of creating with my hands.  It's interesting to me that I suffer from a strange affliction.  I have great difficulty getting words from my brain to my mouth, but find it incredibly easy to get my thoughts clearly from my brain to my hands!  So why not start writing more.

Then an opportunity has come along from the Diversity News Magazine in the Treasure Valley, Idaho, to help revitalize the publication to better serve the needs of the LGBTQ community and our allies.  This opportunity will not only allow me my expression through my hands, but tap the untapped resource that I paid good money for in the '80s, my education and continuing interest in Marketing and Advertising!  What a concept.

So, as the sneaker says, I am beginning to start paving my own road.  It may take a while to clear the brush and rocks, maybe some explosives to move part of a mountain, more study about the lay of the land, environmental studies so I don't run over some endangered species along the way.  But a new road I will build, new signs for others to follow and perhaps make their journey a bit more pleasant.

And once again, I remind myself that the Universe is Kind...